I wonder.

It feels kinda good to be back on Facebook. You know, seeing all those unnecessary drama through statuses and what not. Well.. it has been a routine to most of my colleagues too - being on FB when we get to work in the morning.

No harm, I guess. But, I do feel that FB has becoming such lifestyle to the modern world.
As modern and updated as it may be, it could really damage the intangible items, relationship to begin with.

For some reason, people have been openly expressive through the media. Well, it ain't because they're not open in saying/telling it in person. In a way, it gives such satisfaction to be able to say whatever they wish, online. "Freedom of Speech" which is rarely being practised in Malaysia. However, people tend to express themselves better through these new media wave ; Facebook, Twitter,..

I see dramas everyday on Facebook. Some of them give me good life lessons, but most of them give me crap to begin with. O well. People love sensational stories, gossips, tragedy and even crappy news. Some take it as the intelectual inputs, but some might be taking it as news-to-enjoy-today.

Sometimes, I do wonder. How are these social media could actually place us at a wrong spot,lead us to complications, get us addicted to it and so on. I begin to realize the aftermath of social networking media could really place an impact in one's life. This is beyond our expectations.

As for me, I do enjoy having Facebook as part of my daily routine check-list. It's inviting, it's entertaining and sometimes, can be mean too :) I'm lucky enough to be able to find out about some hidden agendas that I'm unable to find it myself elsewhere. It's either planned or just plainly coincidence.

Yups. Just sharing but not directing this to anywhere, anyone.
I'd like to end this piece with a phrase,"You do what you do. I'd do what I would. Nothing else I can say but a genuine sorry for you..."


AA

It does hurt

I've been missing you, I won't lie.
It gives me so much pain thinking of the situation we're in.
Please get me out of this. I am just worn out by the game.
Don't make me give up cuz I know I could.

I do miss you a lot. You have no idea.
I wanna call and tell you how much I do love you.
I just can't. I break down and cry when I see your name up on the text messages.

Trust me. This tragedy is hurting me.
Don't leave me out, dying..

Read my heart

I have loved you since the day you told me how much I mean to you.

I have learned to love you better, every single day.

I honestly feel the need to loving you more.

I appreciate the fact that you have been giving the love, the care, the honesty that I never thought I'd get from you. 

No.. don't stop. I need you to keep on loving me, keep on caring about me.. and keep being honest towards me.

Sometimes, I really wish you understand my way of perceiving things. The way I look at certain things.

I really hope I could make you understand that I don't fancy certain things you do. It's not simply because I'm trying to change the way you are. I was only trying to meet half way so we both could gain happiness.

Sayang, you know I'd never do anything to hurt you in any ways.

I am happy to see you happy. You have no idea how proud I am of myself when you told me that I'm the one who makes you smile again, after the years.

I wanna make you happy. I wanna give you a better life.

I wanna live my life with you, forever.

I never felt this way about someone I love. You make my world, a better place to live in.

I'm hoping and praying there'll be no one will ever take you away from me.

I never wanted you to look away from me. I wish you could read my heart whenever it hurts, whenever it feels amazing,.. or even whenever it cries.

At times you just don't understand the way I really hate on something. 

I tried being relevant and embrace the fact that it could be something that makes you happy but not to me.

I had to just close my eyes and shut my heart to the pain, though it hurts.. just to see you happy.

But, is it fair?

Is it fair enough to me?

I tried putting the smile on your face but.. getting myself a land of pain.

How is that fair? 

As long as I could still hold on to it, I will.

But.. I have no idea how long I am able to hold on.

Again, all I care about is your happiness. If you ain't happy, I will not be too.

I have so much love for you..

I do not wanna waste it on thinking of my hatred towards someone else who's not even important in my life. You are, the most important person in my life (after my parents and brother).

Please, .. swim deeper into my heart..

You'll see how much it has hurt me inside..

Don't let me go out of breath..

Hello disturbance.

I always remind myself that I wasn't born perfect. Hence, I have no right to see others through imperfection. As I myself ain't close to perfection. But, I always wanna be the best and the perfect one for myself, family and those who care about me.

There's a say,"You can't please everyone...".

True enough. I am unable to please everyone. Whether or not with my attitude, my thoughts, my body language or even my say. Who am I to be able to please everyone?

I ain't God. I wasn't born to give perfections to others.

I tried being pleasant to almost every person in my surrounding.

I tried. I think I have tried my best.

And I tried not to be rude to others, unless, the situation forces me to.

I think I have been rude to many people in my life. I had to.

Sometimes, they don't understand what it's like being me.

Sometimes, they just hurt me (intentionally).

I have hold on for a while now.

I was hoping that things were going to be better.

Things were better for the moment. I thought it would last a little longer.

I do not wish to be hurt over and over again. I don't think I have "tickled" you in any ways.

So.. what are you doing this for?

I have never thought in being your way.. at all.

Now, I think I had to.

Mum and Dad never taught me to be someone useless and rude to others.

But, I learned throughout my yesteryears, in standing tough to be myself.

It's hard.

Who are you to be in my way? You ain't that great. You ain't that interesting.

You are just an attention seeker who has no sense of life, no sense of sensitivity, no sense of courtesy.

I may not know you well. But, I know your type.

Immature, attention seeker, troublemaker, insensitive, spoilt, bitch-ness, irrelevant, irresponsible,

dumb, home-wrecker, ... those traits that you have just get me to feel truly sorry for you.

Yes, again.. I ain't perfect. But, at least, I never have and never will get into someone else's love life.

You and your loneliness.

You and your "Look-at-me.I-need-the-attention.."

You and your dumbness.

You and your ego.

You and your ugly traits.

It's just.. all about you just makes me sick.

You get me to puke my positive vibes that I tried to feel from you..

You really get me to see you in many ugly ways..

I am sorry.

That's just who you are.

Why do you need so much attention for?

You must be sick. You must be very very sick.

You tried so hard in being beautiful.

You are just not.

Beauty comes from within, not from your cleavage.

Beauty comes from the pleasant body language, not from being free on every male's shoulders or laps.

Beauty comes from the heart who always get connection to Allah SWT.

To you, I have and will always pray for you to be at a better place.

Nothing else I'd say but sorry for you.

You were just born to be mentally sick. Your soul is plain disturbed.

You.. should, return to where you came from.. - nowhere.

You deserve to be nowhere.. where no souls are alive, no body is well.

Good luck to you, bitch!

May you rest in peace.