God is fair

Since my semi-big day is approaching, there are things that come to me that kinda scare me for some reasons. Am I able to leave most of the things behind since there'll be another life ahead of me?

I am hoping that God hears me in every prayer I've had for Him. I really wish He does. He would guide me to the right path and give me a better life. I wanna be able to live with someone whom I truly love, till my last breath. Insyallah. I seek for His blessing on my marriage.

I learned a lot from the past. Life isn't about yourself alone. Life is beyond that. We can go around for weeks and months to be discussing and sharing about God. But, whether or not we have the faith within? Do we really believe that our lives are for Him, hereafter?

Being in America for awhile has taken me into another world which I never thought I'd be in. The concept of living life without God and The Doomsday is not going to be happening; is widely planted in their minds. How could they lead their lives that way?

Well, I have no rights to judge their choices. God has given all of us the opportunity and the wishful thinking to judge and choose. I do believe God has always a better plan for each and every of us - whether you like it or not.

I was in such an ignorant stage of life when I really thought that God is unfair. He picks and chooses those that He likes and award them with heaven on earth. As I was growing up, it makes even more sense to me that God put us on tests to value our patience, faith and responsibility as His man. He created us, so He definitely has a total right to command anything in relation to men.

I'm hoping to better myself as a Muslimah. Being someone's wife isn't about being pretty for the husband and serving good meals, but the responsibility is tremendously huge.
By His blessings, am hoping to go through life as someone's wife in full of imaan and taqwa. Am just a human being, I am lack in many aspects of life. Insyallah, as long as I am still keeping my imaan with me, I'll try to be a better Muslimah from time to time.

Cheers.

The Journey begins

I've been waiting for the day. I've been nervous and had no idea how's it going to be.

At times, I think I am ready for this. At times, I do feel doubts.

The decision to begin my journey with someone for the rest of my life ain't a piece of cake.

O well. I figured I am ready. I do not wanna lose the great thing I've gotten in my hands.

Good things come to those who wait and they don't come twice, for sure.

I've been wanting to have someone as a great partner in my life who loves me so much. I've gone through a lot in my previous relationships and all of them taught me so much about life. I haven't done learning though. Never will. Now I've been awarded someone really extraordinaire. Alhamdulillah. Can't ask for more. I don't really have to go on searching for someone to like me, to adore me, to love me. But, to have someone who can really accept me for who I am NOT what I have, it is almost impossible. Who does that still in the cruel world nowadays?

So I've found mine. Everything about him just completes me. He is almost perfect. Nothing can beat my love for him. I am so thankful to God for sending him to me.

I may not know where life in the future would bring us to... but, all I know is I'll be spending the rest of my life with him.

Today, Jan 7th is the moment when everything just excitedly begins. It's just simply memorable to begin our New Year.

I got really nervous this morning the moment I woke up. Never had that many butterflies in my stomach. It was not a fun feeling nor pleasant. But, I am way grateful that it went well.

Though it was not a big deal to some other people, but it is to me.

I'm just not the expert to be able to express how I feel about this.

However, I do know I have gotten myself to somewhere strange. Not everyone would go to this stage if they're simply not ready. They will need a powerful mind and a complete-solid-soul to begin with.

My life has changed since I met him. I learn a lot through this relationship. It feels different to being around him. Though, I did and will never take him for granted. I do not wanna hurt him in any ways. He's just meant to be for me. Never thought I'll end up with him. I will never forget the day when I first met him - KL PAC.

Here we are, our journey begins... today.

I love you with all my heart.

God has been waiting to give me YOU. He put me through hurts and hell just to get me to YOU.

Thank you sayang for a wonderful 1 year together.

I love you loads!

The Call.

Every new year, I always look forward to the month of February. It is simply because I was born in February and just so happens that Mum's birthday is in February as well - so I take it as a special month of all the months in the year.

It has been my dream to have something big happens on my birthday. Be it my graduation, the first day at work, engagement or even wedding. It just feels special and extraordinary you know.

Some people may take it as an ordinary day. What's so special about someone birthday anyways? I don't know.. cuz to me, my family practices celebrating birthday every year. It is such an acknowledgment and appreciation. The practice just gets the bond stronger. Oh, I love my family so much! :)

And.. February 2012 will be another year older for me. Wiser too, I hope. 

Looking forward to having an amazing February 2012.

Insyallah, everything will fall into places. 

 

Dan kahwinkanlah orang-orang bujang (lelaki dan perempuan) dari kalangan kamu, dan orang-orang yang soleh dari hamba-hamba kamu, lelaki dan perempuan. Jika mereka miskin, Allah akan memberikan kekayaan kepada mereka dari limpah kurniaNya kerana Allah Maha Luas (rahmatNya dan limpah kurniaNya), lagi Maha Mengetahui. (An-Nuur 24:32)

Love.